The heart wants what it wants.

Is it weird that if I happened to rub an ornate lamp and a genie popped out, the first wish I would make would be for you to love me the way I loved you?

Don’t get me wrong, I am over you. I just want to know what it is to be loved the way I love you.

There is no doubt that I am over you.

But every time I look at you, I wonder if your heart ever fluttered when you heard my name.

Did your lips curve up into an unconscious smile when you thought of me?

Have you ever thought that the way I smiled was beautiful?

Did you miss me when I wasn’t around?

Did you ever stay up thinking about me or even dream of me when you slept peacefully?

Did you ever spare me a second glance?

Because I have.

I don’t anymore, but I did.

I swear my heart doesn’t long for you anymore.

I swear I only think of you as a friend now.

I swear your casual flirting doesn’t affect me anymore.

But the thing is that you were my first love.

And like every other first love, I knew it was doomed to fail.

But the heart is after all a muscle,

and you know what they say about muscle memory-

You never forget how to ride a bicycle

And you never forget your first love.

And even though I am over you,

You will always have a special space reserved in the corner of my heart.

After all the heart has it’s own mind

And the heart wants what it wants.

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Author's note:

Haha, I didn't exactly plan that my first post after my long break would be a piece like this. But when I sat to write, this is what I ended up with. So here you go. Hope you liked it. As usual, don't forget to like the post, leave a comment, and share it. Also, follow us on Instagram to be notified when we post.

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Lots of love,

Joy.